Friday, July 29, 2011

I'm STILL Not Use to It

I can't get over the sound of my voice on the air. I guess I'm like most people, when they hear the sound of their voice, shocked that they sound that way. I've always hated my voice.

When I was in high school I was told by a P.E. teacher (a freaking ancient wrinkled and bitter woman who was a P.E. teacher for Christ Sakes!!!) that if I wanted to be taken seriously I'd need to work on my voice. If I was in my right mind I should have asked her:

"I see how far you've gotten in your life, how? Tell me how do I work on my voice? How can I make my soft feminine voice growl like your husky manly one so that I may one day to be an 80-year-old sun-withered P.E. teacher like yourself?"

But I was shy and embarrassed that she had insulted me in front of the entire class. I couldn't change the sound of my voice no more than she could change the extra folds of skin surrounding her neck and her knees. Sometimes I wish I had a time machine. I would tell bashful teenage Erica to stop being such a pussy. That high school and the narrow-mined people in it don't matter. If I had known that then I probably would have gotten into far more trouble.

All that was to say despite my best efforts somethings still bother me. My voice being one of them. It's probably why I'm so vulgar. Cute girl, cute voice throw everyone off by talking like a sailor :0)

This week's playlist:

St. Vincent - Surgeon
Alex Ebert - Truth
The Horrors - Still Life
Tv on the Radio - Will Do
Portugal. The Man - Sleep Forever
Cold Cave - Confetti
Erykah Badu - Gone Baby, Don't Be Long
Shrift - To the Floor
Kele - The Other Side
Royksopp - Poor Leno
CSS - Let's Make Love and Listen to Death From Above
Passion Pit - Little Secrets
K-os - Superstarr, Pt. Zero

Friday, July 22, 2011

So Sleepy, So Tired

I wonder, do I always sound like a wet blanket when I talk about how tired I am by the end of the week? I don't mean to sound like a retiree, but I'm TIRED! Currently I'm on summer vacation from school, but I work full-time along with taking classes and side projects to learn  the Adobe Suite, and videography. By Friday my mind is jello, I then get up at 4:30am to play music for an hour (which I enjoy) and then do one of the following options: get ready for work, go back to sleep for an hour then go to work, or clean my house. Depending on the week my boyfriend will decide we need to go out after work and on those Fridays I usually don't go to bed until 2 in the morning. When I ignore his phone calls, I go to bed by 11 the latest. Still a pretty long day after a very long week.

This weekend is bitter sweet. The boy toy is moving from Pasadena ( a mere 15 mins. from my current dwelling) to San Jose (let's add another 5 HOURS to that commute.) At first I was encouraging and happy for his move due to the job promotion that prompted the move. Now sitting among the boxes and the bare walls of his apartment, I'm doing all I can not to have a panic attack. I know once he's gone I'll be ok, it's just the count down that's killing me now...72hours, 40min, 27 Monday the accessibly of our relationship will be cut down to almost nil...for a year at least as I push through to finish school. 

I'm going to miss him being so close, and I'm fearful that other means of communication will slowly tear us apart. I hate talking on the phone and so does he. I've never been good with Keeping in Touch. We've already worked out an almost divorce-like visitation schedule. Our relationship is pretty solid, but time and distance is a challenge that we haven't had to deal with, well time yes. We've been looking for that space and time vacuum, but have yet to find it. Oh well. 

It blows to have someone always right there and then they are gone. Ok done being Debbie Downer, here's this week's playlist: I know on the show I mentioned Portugal. The Man but it didn't play and I didn't notice (still packing) So sorry will try again next week.

1. Milo Greene - 1957
2. Radiohead - Lotus Flower
3. Little Dragon - Ritual Union (Tensnake Remix)
4. The Horrors -Still Life
5. Two Door Cinema Club - Something Good Can Work
6. TV on the Radio - Will Do
7. Zero 7 - Swing
8. Mayer Hawthorne - A Long Time 
9. Gomez - Catch Me Up
10. Jamiroquai - Seven Days in Sunny June
11. LCD Soundsystem - I Can Change
12. Jill Scott w/ 4Hero - Another Day (Gotta Get Up)


Friday, July 8, 2011

No One Noticed

So last week I was freaking out because I played a song by Maximum Balloon that had the word "shit" in it. I've listened to the song dozen of times, but never noticed it. It's mostly likely because I cuss so much and I'm  so vulgar in my everyday life, that I don't notice, rather gloss over many vulgarities in music. Anywho I swore I was going to be dismissed from this voluntary  "mixologist" gig (btw who came up with the term mixologist. I feel like I should be mixing cocktails) but figured it was a good nine week run.

BUT NO ONE NOTICED!!!! I received no warnings, no looks of disappointment, no threatening emails, not even a text from my mother, who inadvertently taught me how to cuss before she became saved. NOTHING. Which made me realize that one no one listens to my show, two people didn't notice, or three people did notice and just don't care. So fuck it. I'm definitely not going to continue to monitor my language on my blog. Since no one is listening. Don't worry I'm not Debbie Downer. I get off playing decent music on the radio. I don't care if you listen or not. Just knowing I'm putting out in the universe makes me tingly.

Moving on. This week I've been syncing audio to past Oprah episodes (it's part of this freelance job I picked up.) Most of the tapes I've received have been from 1989 with commercials included! I've been zipping back and forth from the present to my childhood. One thing I've realized is that Oprah is bitchy, but in a delightfully funny way. She always has these sarcastic quips. But in the course of a week of watching 17 hours of Oprah I've gotten advice on how to spice up my married sex life from various internationals, how to apply make-up, fashion trends of 89 (I'm not even going to get into it), effects of divorce and cheating on daughters, what men really think about Oprah, and racism in America. But my fave so far has been Maya Angelou and Alice Walker for obvious reasons, phenomenal women, amazing writers.

Anywho I grow tired of this typing. I'm going back to bed. Here's the list:

Empire of the Sun - We Are the People
Aya - Looking for the Sun
Belle and Sebastian - I'm A Cuckoo
Phoenix - If I Ever Feel Better
Friendly Fires - Paris (Aeroplane Remix)
Raphael Saadiq - Just Don't
Zero 7 - Swing
Ra Ra Riot - Too Too Fast
Portishead - All Mine
Nina Simone -  Mr. Bojangles
Platinum Pied Pipers - No Worries
Michael Jackson - Human Nature
The Cure - Boys Don't Cry

Friday, July 1, 2011

I may be in trouble...

And not of the family kind, if that's what you're thinking.

No I may have done something wrong, and I'm hoping it goes by unnoticed, because in my vulgar and corrupt mind, I never noticed it. Not until today and it was too late. OF COURSE it had to be on air!

I'll keep you posted on my demise.

Anywho, here in the states it is Independence weekend! Which means 3-days to chill and relax. I have plans for sushi tonight with friends, lobster tomorrow with another group of friends, laying out at the beach Sunday, and hanging with the family on Monday.

I'm mostly excited that I don't have to be at work for 3days!!! I work for a nonprofit that provides free activities for children year around, but during the summer we have our huge summer camp and the phones ring constantly!! I can't get any work done because parents are calling wanting to enroll their children, which is great, but I have piles of paperwork weeks late. I work part-time so at the end of my four hour shift, I've only gone through one report with literally 50 more that need to be done no later than July 15.

Looks like so overtime maybe coming into play. But 3-days not to worry about it, a much welcomed vacation!

Enough of my babbling on to the playlist!

Kings of Convenience (Erot Collaboration) - Gold For The Price Of Silver
Brazilian Girls - Don't Stop
Maximum Balloon - Apartment Wrestling
Mayer Hawthorne - Maybe So, Maybe No
Arcade Fire - Keep The Car Running
Best Coast - When The Sun Don't Shine
Buzzcocks - Ever Fallen In Love?
Cat Power - The Greatest
Flying Lotus - Tea Leaf Dancers
Friendly Fires - Show Me Lights
St. Vincent - The Same But Brand New
Talking Heads - Psycho Killer
Thom Yorke - Hearing Damage
The Smiths - There Is A Light That Never Goes Out
Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Hysteric