temporary hiatus

I will be taking a break from blogging to catch up and transform the blog. Please stay tuned exciting changes in the works!

If You Noticed...

Apologies for my absence last week. I was bedside to someone very dear to me last week in hospice care. I love doing my radio show and playing great music of my choosing every week, but family comes first.

Last week was hard and strange. For the first time in my life I watched someone I love die. I keep replaying her last breath in my head. She went peacefully, yet the image, the moment keeps replaying in my mind. Being by someone's bedside as they past is definitely not for the weak of heart. You'll never be able to erase the sounds or the images from your mind.

But I'm back! This week I decided to play music that makes me happy and makes me want to dance despite being down. New music from St. Vincent and Twin Sister. I think I'll even remember to put up the podcast link today! You lucky kids you! The playlist:

Sea Wolf - You're A Wolf
Grizzly Bear - Two Weeks
Twin Sister - Bad Street
Arctic Monkeys - Bet You Look Good On The Dancefloor
St. Vincent - Year of the Tiger
Blind Pilot - We Are the Tide
Arcade Fire - Ready To Start
Gogol Bordello - Oh No
YACHT - Psychic City (Classixx Remix)
Blood Orange - Sutphin Boulevard
Feist - Intuition
Buzzcocks - I Don't Mind
Cat Power - (I Can't Get No) Satisfaction
The Drums - Best Friend
Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros - Home

WHERE DID SUMMER GO!?!?!?!?

I can't believe the summer is almost over. It feels like just the other day I was complaining about wedding season being here and now in a week and a half I'll be starting school again. And of course I didn't finish any of my summer goals.

I fretted all summer about making ends meet,  by the time I felt financially secure to do something, summer is/was almost over. These next two weekends I have before school work gets piled on I will use to work on some side projects, this blog included.

As mentioned on the show I just came back home from visiting my boyfriend in NorCal. It was almost depressing to return home. LA now feels dirty and lonely to me. Everyone has moved away and I am desperate to get out and join them. I've lived in LA my whole life and I am ready to leave it and find something new.

I keep telling myself one more year...hopefully. But with the walls I've ran into just dealing with my school it may take longer. At this point I'm willing to just transfer out just to get out of LA. Enough of the whining. Here's this week's playlist:

Blood Orange - Sutphin Boulevard
M83 - Midnight City
St. Vincent - Surgeon
Miike Snow - Song For No One
Talking Heads - Uh Oh, Love Comes To Town
Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Date With The Night
Hot Chip - Transmission
Charlotte Gainsbourg - Voyage
Empire of the Sun - Walking On A Dream
Queen - Another One Bites The Dust
Sia - You've Changed
The Drums - Money
Kele - On The Lam
Feist - My Moon My Man
Elliot Smith - Happiness

Dance Dance Dance!!

A special dance mix dedicated to my mother.

Last year my mother was diagnose with stage 4 colon cancer. The doctors were skepitcal since it was so far advance, but with prayers and a willingness to survive my mother fought it and is now living cancer free! It's crazy to think just last year my family was facing the possibility of my mother not being here, but we were giving one more year. As with everyday I try to enjoy it. I try to take pleasure from the smallest things. So cliche I know. I hate cliches, but it's so true. Love life. Love pain. Love yourself and things are bound to turn around. And if that doesn't work then fuck it and dance!!!

Chuck Love - Seduction (Leigh Morgan Mix)
Redroche feat. Mone - All I Need
RuPaul - Call Me Starrbooty
Msms - Piagon (Original Mix)
Empire Of The Sun - Standing On the Shore
Alain Ho - Would You Be There
Hot Chip - I Feel Better
Daft Punk - Around the World
Roksopp - Poor Leno
Tiesto & Hardwell - Zero 76
Black Box - Everybody Everybody (Le Freak Mix)

Very Short

Post today. The boy toy decided to surprise me with a visit and a concert at the Hollywood Bowl tonight! We're going to see Los Amigos Invisibles and Rodrigo y Gabriella. I love both bands so I'm super excited!!! With the arrival of my boyfriend, I didn't sleep too well last night. Not that we were doing anything (filthy minds you people have.) I'm accustomed to sleeping by myself and I'm a very light sleeper. I love sleeping by myself, but when I sleep next to someone I usually don't sleep until I become accustomed to doing so. Every move, snoring, and tender caress during the night causes me to wake up. It sucks. I was use to sleeping next to him, but since moving, I've once again gotten use to sleeping alone. As I type this I realize that with every visit I'm not going to get much sleep...and not even for a good reason...sigh.

Here's today's playlist:

Belle & Sebastian - I Want the World To Stop
The Bird & The Bee - Polite Dance Song
Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Date With the Night
Does It Offend You, Yeah? - We Are Rockstars
Death Cab For Cutie - 405
Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros - I Come In Please
Dusty Springfield - The Look of Love
Gomez - Catch Me Up
Frou Frou - Breathe In
Toro y Moi - New Beat
Tv On The Radio - Will Do
The Cure - Object
Phoenix - Everything is Everything
The Horrors - Still Life

Should I Stay or Should I Go???

A quick decision needs to be made on my part. My boyfriend is in Vegas for a convention for work. I'm debating on taking a shuttle from L.A. to Vegas (roundtrip only $45!!) and surprising him at his hotel room. I'm hesitant, not cause I'll think I'll see something I don't want to, but worried that maybe he just wants a Vegas trip without me.

Last time we were in Vegas together in a drunken stupor we decided to break-up. Our reasoning seems completely mute now, but at the time in made perfect sense. I can't recall his reasons because he was being so Emo bringing up all this shit that had nothing to do with me or our relationship, I remember mine. At the time I hated his friends that we were visiting (actually not all just one) and he was acting like such a douche and not pacing himself for the night. I hate that. Have some freaking self-control, we're in our thirties now!!!! Anyway I'm ranting.

My missing him is telling me to go. My self-conscience inner self is staying stay put and let the man breath without me. I think I will stay in LA, I really want to spot clean the carpet...

This week's playlist:

Little Dragon - Feather
Poets of Rhythm - Guiding Resolution
Fertile Ground - Live in the Light
Sergio Mendes Feat. Stevie Wonder & Gracinha Leporace - Berimbau/Consolacao
The Decemberists - Engine Driver
Little Dragon - Ritual Union (Tensnake Remix)
Best Coast - When the Sun Don't Shine
Erlon Chaves - Treasure (Boris Dlugosch + Michi Lange Reprise)
Miike Snow - Cult Logic
Radiohead - Lotus Flower
Brazilian Girls - Don't Stop
Sergio Mendes - E Menina (Hey Girl)
Empire of the Sun - Standing on the Shore
Beck - Missing

I'm STILL Not Use to It

I can't get over the sound of my voice on the air. I guess I'm like most people, when they hear the sound of their voice, shocked that they sound that way. I've always hated my voice.

When I was in high school I was told by a P.E. teacher (a freaking ancient wrinkled and bitter woman who was a P.E. teacher for Christ Sakes!!!) that if I wanted to be taken seriously I'd need to work on my voice. If I was in my right mind I should have asked her:

"I see how far you've gotten in your life, how? Tell me how do I work on my voice? How can I make my soft feminine voice growl like your husky manly one so that I may one day to be an 80-year-old sun-withered P.E. teacher like yourself?"

But I was shy and embarrassed that she had insulted me in front of the entire class. I couldn't change the sound of my voice no more than she could change the extra folds of skin surrounding her neck and her knees. Sometimes I wish I had a time machine. I would tell bashful teenage Erica to stop being such a pussy. That high school and the narrow-mined people in it don't matter. If I had known that then I probably would have gotten into far more trouble.

All that was to say despite my best efforts somethings still bother me. My voice being one of them. It's probably why I'm so vulgar. Cute girl, cute voice throw everyone off by talking like a sailor :0)

This week's playlist:

St. Vincent - Surgeon
Alex Ebert - Truth
The Horrors - Still Life
Tv on the Radio - Will Do
Portugal. The Man - Sleep Forever
Cold Cave - Confetti
Erykah Badu - Gone Baby, Don't Be Long
Shrift - To the Floor
Kele - The Other Side
Royksopp - Poor Leno
CSS - Let's Make Love and Listen to Death From Above
Passion Pit - Little Secrets
K-os - Superstarr, Pt. Zero